I know how to spell it. I know where it’s found in the dictionary. I can quote scripture on it. I can tell another person their need for it. But very rarely can I apply it to my own life.
I am the definition of a [busy bee]. I am a natural born socialite who thrives off of the busyness of everyday life. Don’t get me wrong, I get exhausted. Quite frankly, I tend to run myself dry. I am the gal who will attend almost every wedding, graduation, bible study, work event and funeral. The word, NO, tends to be the last word out of my mouth. I tend to be a YES kind of woman. Yes, I will attend your party. Yes, I will help with that function. Yes, I will attempt to do a paper route at 2am for extra spending money. I mean seriously people the “Yes” can turn me into somewhat of a battery operated lunatic running on no sleep.
After meeting & marrying Seth, I found myself one pooped little gal. Not only was I still saying Yes to everything outside of my home, I was also saying yes to everything inside of my home.
Marriage caused me to take a deep breath and reprioritize my time.
I stepped out on a limb and started saying no a little more and yes a little less. I was finally able to find physical rest for my body. I finally had the boldness to say no and not feel bad about it because I knew I was making the best decision for my mental and physical health.
I don’t know about you but I don’t like the silence. If I am alone at home, I have the tv on, social media in full swing and I am humming some little tune. Something about the quiet just makes me feel anxious and scared. I guess I can say that in the quiet, I have to see myself for who I really am. I have to deal with the sin, the pain and anxiety.
[I learned something about the quiet today and I guess you can say, I found rest for my soul.]
I am currently going through a book called, Lord, I want to know you, by Kay Arthur. It’s a great read that goes through the names of God and how they can be personally applied. This book is put into a study format. The first week asks you to write down your fears and then ask God to show you a specific name of His that applies to that fear. I wrote down four specific fears that I am going to be vulnerable and share with you.
1.) Fear: Falling back into old sin. Name of God: Jehovah Raah (The Lord is my Shepard)
[My Jehovah Raah will teach me/shepherd me on how to stay clear of sin. He will lead me and guide me.]
2.) Fear: Loss of Control. Name of God: Adonai (Lord, Master)
[Adonai is the Ultimate controller. He controls all things. Everything that comes to me has first passed through the Father’s hand.]
3.) Fear: Going Crazy. Name of God: Jehovah Shalom (Lord is Peace)
[Jehovah Shalom calms my mind. He has not given me a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind.]
4.) Fear: Losing my salvation. Name of God: El Shaddai (All Sufficient One)
[The Lord will provide to me strength when I am weary. His grace is sufficient to me. He provides me with Salvation.]
For each fear, I would combat that with a name of God and who He says that He is.
“I AM who I AM.”
I was going through these again tonight. Just re-reading what I had put down. When just then, the Lord placed a beautiful picture in my heart. As I went through all these fears, I saw a theme. It can all be pinpointed to control. Control says that God may not deliver. Which means there is a breeding ground of distrust in my heart. When I went through the names of God, I imagined myself as a sheep. What do sheep do all day? They graze and rest.
God has called us to be his sheep. All he wants us to do is GRAZE & REST. Just then a peace I had never felt before became so real to me. It was a peace that came when I decided to picture myself resting in a field of grace knowing that my Shepard is taking watch for me. No Lion can come up behind and attack me without my Shepherd allowing it for either my growth or benefit. This is a rest that I believe the Lord intends for us to stay in every moment of everyday.
We live in a society that is constantly in competition for our attention. We are a generation that NEEDS to be constantly entertained. If it isn’t the radio on in the car, its the tv on in the home or the phone lit up in bed. We fear the silence. I believe it’s one of the biggest baits and tools of satan.
He gets us to fear the silence because he knows it’s only in the silence that we can hear that still small voice.
Sabbath isn’t just a day. It’s a choice. It’s a way of life. It is the epitome of rest.
So let’s be a generation who embrace the silence. The silence where you can hear your heartbeat and your breath circulate through your lungs. It’s in this silence where you find your Shepherd. The only Shepherd who can give us rest for our souls. The moment we release, is the moment we find peace. Can I urge you to turn off the tv, say no to that party, put your phone on silent and just rest?
Rest in the fact that the Creator of the Universe yearns to spend time with you. Oh how he loves….YOU!
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he refreshes my soul. Psalms 23:1&2